Luv Rules Everything Around Me!

On Saturday morning I was driving to Watts for my weekly ritual of teaching and learning at Peace4kids when I noticed two cars literally stopped in the middles lanes of the freeway back to back. The gentleman int the first car jumps out of his car(on the freeway mind you) and start kicking the car behind him! Word! So the other car pulls around him and goes to drive off the cat in the first then jumps in his car and starts to chase him down! Right! Yeah!

It was at the moment that I was continuing my affirmations for a positive, peaceful and joyous day at P4K. This was the second time in about a month that I've seen road rage escalate to where one person was jumping out of there car ready to do some damage. Now I've been in LA for a little over 5 years and I get frustrated like the next person...Folks can be thoughtless or unaware of their circumstances...Actually it happens to us all! No one is immune to a mistake...

I say all of that to say that through those experiences I am noticing more and more a lack of Love and Compassion to our fellow inhabitants on this planet. We would like the world to cater to us but we are not willing to compromise with it... We don't give Love unconditionally...we put expectations on Happiness... meaning we are not Happy as we are but we will be happy once we get(fill in the blank)...

Well I am allowing Luv to Rule my Life right now. I am no longer waiting to be Happy or smile for no reason. I am smiling right now and will continue to smile just because I am(fill in the blanks or Not)... I am smiling because God is Good...My Life is Great and I am Me...

There it is...

Humility vs. Playing Small

So I have this thing about being humble, not letting my head get to big for my britches as they say. In an effort to do this I've noticed that I would play small. If someone gave me a compliment or said something complimentary to me, instead of just simply saying Thank You, I would downplay my skills and talents. Sometimes it would almost get to the point where it was self-deprecating behavior on my part.

Yeah...

I was not really doing myself any justice and was probably really annoying... Life brings people in our Life to at times give us a glimpse of who we really are. And a while back I met an extremely talented person and I was giving them their props and the response was always kind of negative...then it dawned on me...

Whoa...

Did I sound like that?

Was I that annoying with my deflection of compliments?

Probably so! I have given up that a minute ago... and am truly confident in the Talents and Gifts that I've been Blessed with...

Flip side...

The first time I ever stepped into Agape they had a guest speaker... Bro Ishmael Tetteh, and the person who introduced him lavished him with all kinds of praise...so I was kind of excited to hear him... He said thank you to the person and then said everything she says is(brief pause) is true... So I was like Word? ... Then he goes on to explain that We are all created in the Image and Likeness of The Divine and it is impossible for us to be anything other than spectacular.

Hmmm...

It made much sense to me back then...still does, but now I am able and willing to not just understand what he means but Live it daily...

There is no need for me(or anyone reading this) to play small.

It serves no purpose...

Productivity

So, this week was for me one of my most productive weeks ever! I embraced my freedom to create and network. I am relishing my Life as it is right now. I Love being able to wake up in the morning and the only thing I have to do is create. Well that is the majority of my day, but you know what I mean...Anywho

Yes! I love my Life, It is great. I am no longer chasing money but pursuing my passions...

New Thought...

Today was an interesting day. I started out on cloud 9! I was ecstatic and happy ready for the beauty to continue to unfold. Then I got massively frustrated. Yeah, so I caught myself and had a conversation with God...realizing that my frustrations were a temporary thing and that I shouldn't allow it to know me out of my box, and it worked. I still had some frustration for the situation but I did not allow it to consume me to the point of anger.

I am not attempting to invalidate my emotions but instead process them check the situation and move on. To not harbor negative thoughts and emotions to the point that it has me becoming less than my Highest Self!

Yeah, all in all great things are happening! I am excited. Life is Grand...

A Glimpse

...My day was utterly amazing and inspiring and filled with mad creative energy!

Artistic freedom at its finest!

As I was driving home one thought kept popping up in my head

Actually two...

I love my Life

And

I'm pretty good...

I really do love my Life and am ecstatic over the way it is unfolding...

I am also incredibly inspired by the people that have come into my Life at many given points but right now the synchronicity is at a higher level than I have ever remembered before...

I am sure I am just more aware of it now because I am opening myself up to new experiences and being more amenable to change and such...

Yeah...

Life is Grand...

In Love and Possibilities ,

Mark

The Weirdness

Today was very much a weird day for me... I woke up with an anxiety attack of sorts... I have had this knotting up of some sort of tension happening in stomach for sometime now...

I think it is something trying to be worked out...

Could be growing pains....hmmmm

I am now seeking to look at things as a positive awakening and not the other shoe about to drop on something negative...

Calling into my existence the very things I want in my life, I am nervous right now...

I may have said this before...really have not gone back to reread to many of my blogs yet...

I will soon though...need to gauge my "progress"...

Oh yeah...so I really have no excuses right now as far as making my first short film...

I could use finances as an excuse, but honestly it would be a lame one at best...

I want it done so it can be done...

Having faith and praying as if it is already done...

But yeah... this morning I woke up with a knot in my stomach I laid there and allowed myself to just breathe...not force anything and make it out to be something bad happening but just dealt with it without judgment... did some heavy meditating and praying this morning because of it...
and watched my day unfold...connected with some old friends from home who are now moving out here... went to the library and got some more books on filmmaking..and just allowed my day to flow...

And here I am... knowing that something is happening right now for me, I am really attempting to not tinker with anything and just flow...just flow...I've never really done that before...and honestly I am having such a hard time with it right now, but it is what has to be done...I am learning the tools of the trade...I've planted the seeds now I must step back and not over water the soil...Yeah

Just let it grow...while I grow as well...

Allowing

One thing I noticed about about myself this weekend is that I do not let things flow... I am forever in a state of attempting to fix something... tweak this or solve that...very rarely allowing a plan to unfold... there are probably various reason for that...when something is new for me that sense of uncomfortableness happens and I feel that something is wrong...

For instance...

Sometimes when we get butterflies in the pit of our stomach or something of that nature... I always assume something is wrong not the other way around...

Yeah...

There is that expectation thing again...I am improving but I kind of expect things to collapse...even when I know deep in my heart they should not...I still walk with a sense of insecurity...

When you know better you do better...

This weekend was and is in a lot of ways something really different for me

So many things are popping up...giving me an opportunity to relapse into a slightly pessimistic doing just enough but not my all type cat...

But I know I want better for my Life...

Not in the future(well then too) but Now!

Now is when I am Being Happy

Now is when I am expressing My Joy

Now is when I am creating My Abundance

Now is when I am displaying My Gratitude

Now is when I am sharing My Gifts

Now is when I control My Life...the things I say and do...Can't do anything about the past...or future...

So Now let me embrace Me Now...

humor is a crutch

Sometimes...but I love it... I love to smile and laugh...

That was just a thought...

As I begin a new phase in my Life I have soooooo many questions about what I need or want this blog to be and be about...

How long should each entry be?

Should I make it more/less personal?

How often should I write?

Should I give my opinions on things that happen in our world?

Yeah, no...maybe...

Still really figuring it all out... I will more than likely just go with the flow...

Like we really need someone weighing in on the swine flu or Arlen Spector...

Right?

This is a spiritual quest or journey for me...

Not to find anything but to tap into what is or has been lying dormant for sometime...

ME...

There are no rules...not here anyway...

Living Life...

star-gazing...daydreaming

Reciting my Bliss...

I don't always appreciate how good my Life is right now...and the Freedoms that I have to just Be...

a beautiful place to reside in...if only I could reside their comfortably..,

I can...

It will just take some getting used to...

Allowing my plans to unfold...not tweak them every other day...

Trust...

Practice...

Live...